How much can you see?
When you have the sudden urge to do something and you do it?
Have you ever wondered what that is? That sudden desire or urge seemingly popping into your mind out of nowhere? It is so easy to just accept it as being there. Next time you have a thought or idea randomly pop into your head with absolutely no relevance to what you are doing in that moment, consider it as a message, perhaps from your guides or your higher self. Surely it comes from somewhere.
I had that very strong urge come over me today. I was sitting at my desk working on a spreadsheet to keep track of my subscribers and I was thinking about an uncomfortable family matter we are currently facing where our existing plans for a day that is important to us is being changed. Out of nowhere I wanted to do an intuitive artwork using my Brusho paints. I quickly got everything I needed. I sprayed my page with some water, dropped the Brusho powders in random areas and started looking for shapes. The first shape that appeared was an elephant, the next a Phoenix, then the two Koi fish, then the Lilly flower. I thought I was done at this point but turns out I was only done with the very guides I needed at that moment.
When I had completed the painting with just the Elephant, Koi, Phoenix and Lilly (like below), I called my mother. We were having a great conversation and we started talking about the images in this painting. I was wondering what the Pheonix meant. Before I go through the Pheonix a little backstory is needed. For the last few months I have had such a hard time making a decision. I knew what I wanted to do but I was too scared to take the leap to do it. My decision required me to choose one of two things. Carry on with what I know works but no longer makes me happy, or start something new that I know will make me happy but puts me at risk of loosing money, students and followers. I also didn't just want to stop my current work, I want it to still continue, but the decision is impossible because I also want to put all my focus into something new. The second I try and continue the work I no longer want to do my energy slumps, I feel like I have to force myself to do it, I have no drive or motivation to do it and even watching other videos makes me want to do stop it even more. I've been feeling like this for months so how long do I continue to do this to myself. I have had so many things come up confirming that I need to make a big change, that transformation is happening, that I'd be facing a difficult decision. But regardless of that, I've chosen to ignore it because I'm too scared. For months I've been telling my close friends that I want to create something with meaning, I want to use my dreams somehow, I want to inspire others in more ways than just teaching a skill. I think they are sick of hearing it.
Okay...back to the Pheonix. Right before I looked up what Pheonix meant I found my answer. I found a way for my work to continue with high energy, incredible content and perfect quality and at the same time I get to put all my focus into exactly what I want to do. I then told my mom about my thoughts as I was having them. She was so happy I found my answer and agreed there was no better way. When we then finally got back to the meaning of Pheonix my mother and I couldn't stop laughing. We laughed at how obvious the universe can be with its messages if we are just willing to listen. The Pheonix is a mythical creature, when it dies its own fire turns it into ashes and from those same ashes the Pheonix is reborn. Pheonix is the ultimate symbol of transformation, death, rebirth and fire. It represents strength and renewal and a guide from the sun which sets (dies) each night only to rise (be reborn) each morning. In essence the Pheonix never dies, it continually rises through its ashes. This was the confirmation I needed that my work will continue, it won't die. And the transformation I seek will be in effect.
The magic of this painting doesn't end there...
According to Greek lore the Lilly means birth and is a symbol of motherhood. In the painting the Lilly is placed right beneath the Pheonix and the Koi fish. Yet another way of confirming the birth of this new idea.
All I can still say in these moments of getting abundantly clear answers and confirmations is 'wow'. I probably said it a thousand times while on the phone with my mother.
Once we realised what it all means my mom was starting to notice a few other things happening within the painting. On the bottom right she could see a fox, I could see it too once she said it and so I started changing the painting some more. I wondered what fox meant and it turns out it was the exact message my mother needed. Isn't that just so profound? We continued and even my brother ended up wanting to find some things within the painting too. Between the three of us we also found a Rabbit, a Dear, a Hedgehog, a Red Panda, a Rhino, a hand and two tiny people walking toward a tree. We were on the phone for 2 and a half hours! We had so much fun we just could not stop.
One of my dear beautiful cousins suggested I do these paintings for others. By keeping the other person in my mind and creating an intention to create an intuitive artwork just for them by asking their guides for help. Who knows, maybe I'll do that one day.
Before I end this very long post I want to point out just how much can be learnt from it. We don't have to do the things that gradually add to our unhappiness, we can transform it into something that brings us joy and helps us act with love if we simply ask our guides for help and pay attention to what comes up. Our guides can come to us in all sorts of ways, through dream, through sudden random urges, through visions (that very random and irrelevant image/thought that pops into your head), through animals, through synchronicities, through feelings, through our five senses (like a sudden smell that brings a memory back to you), or seeing someone walk by that you haven't seen since school. There are millions of ways. Just stop and pay attention.
With love and blessings.